Another Show Of Emotion
By: Shawn D. Petrie (5-28-2003)
Its 12 am, the world is dead
Scared to release the thoughts in my head
A sudden rush of familiar pain
Pushes towards me through the rain
I hang my head as the show begins
I begin to review and judge my sins
To you I am just another ghost
Who acted a little more psychotic than most
I rub my eyes until they’re red
I glance over at my empty bed
I’m still alone, inside I’m scared
With no visible marks to the pain I’ve bared
Sitting amidst the ashes and rust
I reach towards your memory but it turns to dust
You quickly pass through and leave your mark
But your body is twisted and your face is dark
I touch my chest feel my heart beat
I hear racing engines out in the street
I look out the window to find what I knew
There is no one around and I can’t see you
Your absence still causes me pain and sorrow
I wonder will I see you with each new tomorrow
But the further we pass from our strongest day
The more and more you manage to pull away
I begin to cry for reasons unknown
Regretting the weakness in the weakness I’ve shown
Believing things would have turned out all right
If I hadn’t held on to you so tight
Its 1 am and the sky is cold
The lies I believed are getting old
Your angelic face haunts me ‘till dawn
I remember you left me standing out on the lawn
I wish I had the power to change the past
To turn your heart and make our love last
To bring you back this time you would stay
And when I said that I loved you, you also would say
Wiping the tears away from my face
I put away memories I cannot replace
You’re a part of me now and its killing me to know
That as strong as I loved you, you still had to go
But here you are now, back on your own
You have taught me another lesson, I have grown
I have learned that you cannot be the one for me
And I wonder why it took so long to see
You didn’t show love and I know you don’t care
You always kept me lonely, you were never here
You pushed me down and then turned away
You had no restraint in the things you would say
But with all that I say and know to be true
I cannot deny that I still cherish you
I still need your touch and I still seek your heart
And it still hurts me to be alive while we are apart
Where are you now, are you thinking of me?
Are you thinking of what I hoped we would be
Or are you out doing what you seem to do best
Twisting the knife in another unsuspecting chest
