Asbestos (2min54)
By: Shawn Petrie (5-11-2004) Performed by: August Will Decay Loaded Knife Records (2015)
(Chorus 1) Your touch is as soft as asbestos Slowly shaping my will to turn away Your love is a rare form of torture Slowly tearing my future away
(Verse 1) Hold me back I’m running too fast Towards a light which burns too bright Towards illusion I created myself Within my mind, artificial perfection
(Chorus 2) This straightforward plain of existence With you has brought me to my knees Everything that we promised each other Has lost itself out in the breeze
(Verse 2) Close the door the sight is too strong The stare too long, my approach all wrong Conversation splinters the silence But never really ever getting anywhere
(Chorus 3) Your touch is as soft as asbestos Slowly shaping my will to turn away Your love is a true form of torture As you twist the life out of my days
Written, recorded, and performed by August Will Decay
(Shawn D. Petrie) Loaded Knife Records (10-6-2015)
The Reasons (3min11)
By: Shawn Petrie (5-11-2000) – (7-4-2004) – (9-21-2015) Performed by: August Will Decay Loaded Knife Records (2-15)
(Verse) I feel that time is running down Until I must face That there is no room for me here And leave this painful place My hearts broke beyond repair And it’s been long enough My pain should have long since slipped away But I never do get tough
(Chorus) My body is dead weight on my feet I am a walking bomb biding time I try to reach for my slice of the pie But I never can get a hold mine I feel like no matter what I do I will never be as good as you I need one more cruel display To finally put me in my place
(Bridge) I wish I could stop the pain in my heart It’s a constant struggle tearing me apart I’m finding out that love is a lie There are no answers when I wonder why
(Verse) I wish I could stop the tears in my eyes I wish I could kill the pain inside I’m beaten down, too weak to last I’m tired of living my life in the past
I’m holding on but not for long Pretty soon I’ll be gone It’s so uncommon for a man to cry These are the reasons I’m dying inside
Written, recorded, and performed by August Will Decay
(Shawn D. Petrie) Loaded Knife Records (10-6-2015)
Shovel It In (3min33)
By: Shawn D. Petrie Performed by: August Will Decay Loaded Knife Records (2015)
(Verse) I was just sitting, thinking what is this pain your bringing you say that you are there for me but you are never beside me
(Chorus) and as i shovel all the shit you just stand by all of it as i shovel all your shit you just give me more of it
(Verse) you can try to destroy me but you’ll never defeat me i’ll last forever inside you just like a fire that burns you
(Chorus) and as i take, more abuse i cant see, any use why i continue, on with you this crushing force will be the death of you
(Verse) i will refuse to conform to all of the dust that you live through i will never be like you and i will never forgive you
(solo)
and as i shovel all the shit you just stand by all of it as i shovel all your shit you keep giving me more of it
(Bridge) what i ever do to you pain 10 fold to you soon you’ll finally see you are half of me you are someone that i just cant look at i could never be like you pain 10 fold to you
Written, recorded, and performed by August Will Decay
(Shawn D. Petrie) Loaded Knife Records (10-6-2015)
Break Me (3min20) By: Shawn Petrie (1993) – (9-19-2004) – (9-21-2015) Performed by: August Will Decay Loaded Knife Records (2015)
(Verse) An outspoken reason to leave, disobey (I saw this coming) The law of the land, forever to stay (From a mile away) Here for a second, gone for a lifetime (nothing good ever lasts) A spiral to my downfall, I am broken (I am broken)
(Chorus) I can’t dwell in the past, I won’t be broken I must be moving on, as I have spoken I need someone new, although I’ve forgotten I need someone new to replace what’s rotten
(Verse) It will never be the same, the life I once had (Why would I want it to be?) How can I forget, the way we both bled (And how I’m left for dead)
(Chorus) I care for you not, the fires are cold My soul won’t remember, the memory’s dead It is time for new love, to open the door A girl with everything I have been waiting for In need of a kind heart, and understanding Someone who’ll love me when the sky has darkened Someone who’ll smile at me with pure intentions Someone who will not try to devastate me
(Solo)
I need someone to heal, to love and to hold I need someone real, come in from the cold I say this to you on my words I am choking I need someone new to heal all the broken
Written, recorded, and performed by August Will Decay
(Shawn D. Petrie) Loaded Knife Records (10-6-2015)
Blood On Roses (3min03) By: Shawn Petrie (9-6-2004) – (9-26-2015) Performed by: August Will Decay Loaded Knife Records (2015)
(Verse) Life lacks simplicity Too many problems rot your mind In one hand love in the other death Somewhere in between there’s life Can you tell me why it happens? When clouds and mist black out reality Nothing is real What do you expect but fear?
(Chorus) If something is nice That something will die If you could only understand How hard I tried If something is nice That something will die Can you supply to me The tools to then destroy
(Verse) I tried to connect with you But I was left behind With blood drops on my roses And wasted thoughts in my mind When this is over And you come back to me Will love conquer all? Or will I then resist
(Chorus) If something is nice That something will die If you could only understand How hard I tried If something is nice That something will die Can you supply to me The tools to then destroy
(Verse) You cannot understand What you have done to me And no one knows just What will become of me?
My future holds untold stories More pain waiting to surface Will I follow in the footsteps? Of this recently failed society What lies in your mind? Can put an end to my faith I must throw my emotions Into life frozen lake
Life lacks simplicity
Written, recorded, and performed by August Will Decay
(Shawn D. Petrie) Loaded Knife Records (10-6-2015)
You Broke It Off (3min51) By: Shawn D. Petrie (9-15-2015) Performed by: August Will Decay Loaded Knife Records (2005)
(Intro) What am I supposed to do You lie and cheat and wont be true How am I supposed to feel It’s like I was your final meal And now I have nothing to say And you just throw your whole life away I was just a plaything in this This game of torture
(Verse) Half a man is how you make me feel Loosing touch You are no longer satisfied You have such a twisted mind No soul inside and you never cried Blank stares rolling onto me Always threatening to leave All planned from the day we met you’ve left me cold and now I can’t forget
(Chorus) You broke it off Like a twig on a tree You broke it off Then you laughed at me You broke it off With a smile on your face You broke it off And left me in this place
(Verse) These dreams that you let die As you escaped with little reason why You had clearly lost your mind When you grew evil ceasing to be kind All this was just a fucking waste And now I left with a bitter taste Your spoiled fruit dying on the vine And you will cower with the rest of your kind
(Chorus) You broke it off Now you’re where you belong You broke it off To prove that your strong You broke it off like a childish girl And you’ll forever be a tainted pearl
(Out – Repeat Intro)
Written, recorded, and performed by August Will Decay
(Shawn D. Petrie) Loaded Knife Records (10-6-2015)
In Solitary (3min56) By: Shawn D. Petrie (4-20-2004) Performed By: August Will Decay Loaded Knife Records (2015)
(Verse 1) Crushing black comes down onto me Suffocating the love from my heart Heading into uncharted territory I am learning new ways to feel pain
(Chorus 1) Can’t remember when I finally fell Standing on the edge of unconsciousness Spots of light litter my eye lids As I awaken to the cold gray day
(Verse 2) I’m broken, incomplete and abandoned I cry out from the shadows of my room A sadness grows that fills my heart A feeling that I’ll be alone forever
Chorus 2 Push the hurt into myself My hands are shaking as I hold back tears A constant battle with the pain inside Everything I fear is just downstairs
(Verse 3) (Solo)
(Chorus 3) The floor boards bow and creek As I tip toe through the cold Pacing forward ‘till I reach the wall How I wish I could just break through
(Verse 4) Realizing now, this is my fate I am meant to be locked in this place Too small and weak, to reach out Forever struggling to escape
Written, recorded, and performed by August Will Decay
(Shawn D. Petrie) Loaded Knife Records (10-6-2015)
Taking You Out (3min43) By: Shawn D. Petrie (9-11-2015)
Performed by: August Will Decay
Loaded Knife Records (2015)
(Vocalize Intro)
(Verse) Cross my path, you will see That there is nothing stopping me Try your best to put me down You’ll only end up on the ground
Raise a fist, take a swing Try to control everything Looking down the bridge of your nose I’m not the one you will dispose
(Chorus x2) You put me out I’m taking you out Dog eat dog I’m Taking you out You put me out I’m taking you out Watch your neck When your sticking it out
(Verse) Get back to the end of the line Let me point you towards the sign Lift your head so you can see There is nothing stopping me
Raise your voice, puff up your chest You seem to think, that you’re the best But you are simply just a man The same as me so here’s the plan
(Chorus x2) You put me out I’m taking you out Dog eat dog I’m Taking you out You put me out I’m taking you out Watch your neck When your sticking it out
(Bridge) Oh revenge You will be mine I will, right this wrong All in due time
(Verse) Cross my path you will see That there is nothing stopping me You only make me want to fight To try and make the wrong things right
Raise the bar, take a shot You seem to want to fight a lot I just don’t understand at all You want to make me feel so small
(Chorus x2) You put me out I’m taking you out Dog eat dog I’m Taking you out You put me out I’m taking you out Watch your neck When your sticking it out
(Vocal harmony outro)
Written, recorded, and performed by August Will Decay
(Shawn D. Petrie) Loaded Knife Records (10-6-2015)
Another New Soldier (3min27) By: Shawn Petrie (6-14-2004) – (9-15-2015) Performed by: August Will Decay Loaded Knife Records (2015)
(Verse 1) Another new soldier Battling forces in my heart Eyes locked together In each other’s arms through the night
(Chorus 1) Hearts collide, feelings deprived Reflecting on each other’s past Will it be different this time? Will it be different this time?
(Verse 2) Another new soldier Guns drawn, defenses on alert Fists in the air clenched in fear Anticipate a time when all is revealed
(Chorus 2) Trust takes years to build The battle lines are drawn What can I do to make you believe That I have always been here for you Promises are meant to be kept Not just something you say Changing season, trying to find a reason Not to pack up your weapons and, run away
(Solo)
(Verse 3) Another new soldier With a shield, safely guarding their heart Why can’t I keep you near? Why are you the one that I fear?
(Chorus 3) Close the gates the army retreats Just like before, there is a forfeit Will I sell myself out this time? Will I sell myself short?
Fighting to subdue these feelings But always on the look out Keeping my eyes peeled For another new soldier For another new soldier
Written, recorded, and performed by August Will Decay
(Shawn D. Petrie) Loaded Knife Records (10-6-2015)