I’m Done By: Shawn D. Petrie

I’m Done
By: Shawn D. Petrie (5-14-2000)

Where are all my friends at
Have they all ran away
Or just found something better to do
Than to try to help me through

I haven’t the money anymore
To buy the things that occupy my time
To help me through to a natural end
One which will not come soon enough

I haven’t the strength to fight
I have wasted it all years ago
Fighting to keep my head above water
When I should have let myself drown

My phone hasn’t rang in days
It seems the world is dead
No one thinks about me
Why should I continue to live

I don’t know what I will do next
Still procrastinating to a certain end
Living a life I have despised from day one
Turn me over the better half of me is done

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December 28, 2015 0

If you knew By: Shawn D. Petrie

If you knew
By: Shawn D. Petrie (6-19-2015)

The darkness fills my eyes
As we say our last goodbyes
If you only knew what id do for you
If you were mine

An emptiness fills the silence
But im screaming out inside
If you only knew just how much
I love you

Life is short and nothings free
But the love that once was Between you and me
But now its faded like your memories
Of better times

But I cannot focus
On what lies beneath
The memories that are
Filling me are positive
And I can only cry

If you knew what I would do for you
I would die for you
Tell a lie for you
I would take the brunt of any force
Without a flinch
For you of course

If you only knew
How I feel inside
And how when I lost you
Something died
That I cant replace
I miss your face
And I miss you

If you knew how I hope
As each day passes
That that will be the very last day
That I spend without you
But there behind it
Is another day, alone

The notes and tags, the gifts the rags
Laying around and hidden in plain sight
A constant reminder
Of what we once had
But will never have again

I have lost my best friend

The only one who will ever know
The real me
The one even I cant see
And help me grow those days
Are sadly over

But there is no blame
The cant be a cause
Is the universe perhaps because
No ones meant to feel that way
Forever

But if you knew
How I hoped and prayed
To a god I don’t know
Cause he never showed
To make that wish come true for me
Which was you

If you only knew the truth
I will never be me without you
I can only be what is left
Of an assembled mess
From pieces that don’t fit
They don’t make sense
They never will again

As I slid that ring on your finger
In that moment my heart does linger
And I miss holding your hand
When you wore your ring

I miss your touch
I miss your kiss
I miss your love
I miss so much

If you only knew what I now know
You’d forgive me
But with so much distance
So much pain
Lies and hurt
And draught and rain
How could we ever go back to what
I remember

Is what I picture true?
Were you ever mine?
Nothing is real anymore
So I must step back let you live your life
The life you tried so hard for with me
But I destroyed your dreams

I am sorry that I hurt you
And I sorry for this reality
I’m sorry for so many things
Maybe if you knew

You could forgive me

I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU

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December 24, 2015 0

I have not forgotten By: Shawn D. Petrie

I have not forgotten
By: Shawn D. Petrie (2-5-2007)

I stepped into a situation
I knew not how to deal
With far to many emotions
Some of which weren’t real

But something always felt so good
Just looking in your eyes
I have so much respect for you
Though i seem to make you cry

You push me back so very hard
But i only came on stronger
Until you could no long breathe
And we could not last much longer

But i couldn’t let you go
For sure i don’t know why
So two more times i looked for love
I knew i had to try

My my had not frown enough
To see all that was wrong
And eventually we split apart
And its has since been very long

I survived and got my wish
A beautiful girl to call my own
She liked me very much
And her attraction was always shown

So many years later
Once my life was carved in stone
She disappeared from me all at once
And now i’m all alone

Without even looking
She came up clear to me
The one that melts me with her eyes
we were both surprised

I had to let her know
That i was still around
I had to try to talk to her
And prove that i’m on steady ground

She talked to me
And then we met
And all the things I’d soon forget
Came rushing back to me

But with a grown up clarity

And here is where i stand
I want to be your friend
I want to make you happy
And know you think of me

I want to spend the hours
Talking until we’re tired
I want to make love to you
I want to feel you close

I want to hold onto the dream
That you could be the one
That we could spend the rest of time
Together and as one

But as it stands right now
I must forget it all
And worry about the simple next step
Which one of us is going to call

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December 24, 2015 0

This Nightmare Christmas Eve (12-24-2015)

This Nightmare Christmas Eve
By: Shawn D. Petrie (12-24-2015)

Twas the night before sadness
Like I’ve never felt before
And the hurt that surrounds me
Has seldom been more

The tree I won’t place
Still stares in my face
As a constant reminder
Of the loss from this place

The stockings (just socks)
Are not hung anywhere
And I am feeling alone
Wondering who cares

Am I meant to suffer
As the snow is impending
To freeze off my love
And destroy this pretending

This holiday season
Burns it it’s own special way
And I curse this Christmas eve
And tomorrow just the same

Why place so much desire
In a heart that’s kept alone…
Some sick kind of joke?
From the leaders on thrones?

Twas the night before madness
As my mind self destructs
I won’t wake up tomorrow
…With a small bit of luck

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December 24, 2015 0

INNER SEPARATION By: Shawn D. Petrie

INNER SEPARATION
By: Shawn D. Petrie (6-22-1999)

THERE IS A CHILD WHO WATCHES
SHE SEES WHAT I’VE BEEN THROUGH
AND ALTHOUGH THE UNDERSTANDING LACKS
SHE FEELS THE PAIN I FEEL

I CAN’T HELP BUT WONDER
WHAT SHE THINKS OF ME
WHY SHE WANTS TO LEAVE
WHY SHE WON’T GET CLOSE TO ME

THE MIND STILL SEEMS TO REPEAT
I MET HER, KNOCKED OFF MY FEET
AND IT SEEMED SHE WAS THE ONE FOR ME
BUT IN TRUTH IT COULD NEVER BE

SHE MADE ME FEEL I WAS THE ONE FOR HER
BUT IN FACT THE TRUTH WAS BLACK
BECAUSE WHEN I STARTED TO GET CLOSE
HEARTLESSLY SHE TURNED BACK

NOW I PLAY MYSELF, SAY THAT I’M O.K.
I PRETEND I DO NOT FEEL ALONE
I REALIZE NOW THAT NOT EVEN I,
COULD DISPLACE HER SELF RIGHTEOUS THRONE

NOTHING GOING ON INSIDE MY HEAD
NOTHING GOING ON INSIDE MY HEART
EVERYTHING HAS BEEN PUT ON HOLD
‘CAUSE MY INNER SEPARATION IS TEARING ME APART

WHEN WILL THIS CHILD FORGET
THE PAIN I’VE PUT HER THROUGH
ALL MY LOVE MUST HAVE BEEN HELL ON HER
BUT SHE’LL PROBABLY DENY THE TRUTH

THERE IS A CHILD WHO WATCHES
SHE’S COMING INTO HER OWN
AND SOMEDAY SHE’LL SEE
THAT SHE WILL NEVER GET BACK
TO HEAVEN FROM WHICH SHE WAS THROWN

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December 24, 2015 0

Frozen Tears By: Shawn D. Petrie

Frozen Tears
By: Shawn D. Petrie (11-22-1993)

Running through the ashes
On a cold December day
I am as cold inside as it is out here
With frozen tears on my face

Dancing in the cold sun
The freezing light of day
It is true to me I am lost inside
And I am never going to pull out of this

Running through the jasmine
A hallucination in my mind
I am half a man, lost to the outside
With frozen tears on my face

If I were really here I could communicate
If I was still alive I could concentrate
I am dead inside and cannot see my fate
Though you are my friend you cannot end the frozen tears on my face

Running through the ashes
On a cold December day
I wish I could freeze my feelings
And unthaw the tears on my face

Dying under a pale moon
The end is finally here
It is true to me I am lost inside
And I will die without a care

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December 24, 2015 0

Going through the motions By: Shawn D. Petrie

Going through the motions
By: Shawn D. Petrie (4-30-2000)

Loneliness felt by fools
Cannot see there future past
Into what could become a better tomorrow
What will and should not last

Heartache felt by lovers
Lost each other somehow in the rain
Proving true positions cannot be revealed
A true reflection of inner pain

Tears display the emptiness inside
A fear of yours to come
Hoping for the best with a light that’s inside, but
Worried they won’t find anyone

Cleansed wounds undressed begin to regress
Unprotected progress forgotten by fear
Praying for someone to ease the pain
Wishing you could hold someone near

Realizing all you can do is hope
Keep a strong heart, stand your ground
Have faith in who you are
Even when there is no one around

I know your in pain, I can see it in your eyes
A lot can be misunderstood
with all the commotion, but it is nothing to be feared
You’re just going through the motions

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December 24, 2015 0

I miss you all day By: Shawn D. Petrie

I miss you all day
By: Shawn D. Petrie (7-8-2003)

Days go by but I will survive
The past seems like a dream
Wondering if that’s how I’m living now
A tear drops by the chill of your screams

Thinking of people that I have loved
The ones who have stayed and the ones I have lost
Ready to give up on the ones I have now
And get you back at any cost

I know that all seems wrong
And for sure not how I should live
Maybe it’s because you hold a part of me
That I foolishly decided to give

Seeing as how you said that you loved me
I thought that you would always be there
But one day I wasn’t paying attention
Turned around and you weren’t there

All of the people I have known
And in my own fathers raised hand
I have got to know before I go
Is this really an example of a man

Happiness has surly passed me by
I don’t know which way to turn
Realizing that any path I choose
Will surly leave me to burn

When I call you on the telephone
It’s always the same, you’re never home
Out on the town, another fun night
You left me alone with my pain and my fright

Like is something we must choose to live
Even though we are already alive
But what can I do when I offer my love
But in return yours is always denied

I miss you and I don’t know what else to say
When were not together I miss you all day

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December 24, 2015 0

HURT By: Shawn D. Petrie

HURT
By: Shawn D. Petrie (6-13-1994)

I HATE MY LIFE

I HATE MY JOB

I HATE MY FRIENDS

THEY THINK I’M A SLOB

I HATE ALL KINDS OF FOOD

I EVEN HATE YOU

I HURT INSIDE

‘CAUSE ALL THINGS I HATE

WON’T GO AWAY

FOREVER THEY’LL STAY

I HURT INSIDE

‘CAUSE PROBLEMS CONTROL

THEY REOCCUR WON’T GO AWAY

I FEEL NO LOVE

NO ONE TO HUG

NO ONE TO KISS

YOU DON’T GIVE A SHIT

I HURT INSIDE ‘CAUSE

I’M SICK OF THIS LIFE

I HATE THE WORLD

I HATE MY LIFE

I HATE TO REVEAL

THE FACTS THAT HIT HARD

I HATE SO MUCH

THAT IT HURTS TO BE ALIVE

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December 24, 2015 0

I miss you By: Shawn D. Petrie

I miss you
By: Shawn D. Petrie (4-30-2000)

A phone call reminds me of you
Where could you be?
I still love you

A shadow reminds me of you
Are you there?
I still need you

The pain reminds me of you
Will you continue to hurt me?
I still want you

The music reminds me of you
This feeling makes me cry
I still cherish you

The birds remind me of you
I hope you still want me
I still believe you

The night reminds me of you
How you left me out in the cold
I tried so hard to still love you

The sun reminds me of you
How your beauty burnt me down but
I tried so hard to still love you

My reflection in the mirror reminds me of you
In my eyes I see the one you gave away and
I try so hard to still love you

This road reminds me of you
Left at one end while you ran towards the other
Standing alone I still loved you

In my dreams I see you
I try so hard to still love you
I guess that I still do

Realizing my loss brings me sorrow
I wish I could tell you I still love you
So much to this day it still hurts I still miss you

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December 23, 2015 0

I was on your mind By: Shawn D. Petrie

I was on your mind
By: Shawn D. Petrie (4-22-2004)

When I first met you
I didn’t know what to expect
But I know I wanted to see you again
And I know I wanted to be your friend

When we went out
For our first time
I felt a special connection
And was drawn into your direction

I soon realized you felt the same
You were interested in me
And you wanted to see me another time
And you said that I was on your mind

We fell out
It was out very last time
We lost that special connection
I was no longer on your mind

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December 23, 2015 0

I HAVE BEEN USED By: Shawn D. Petrie

I HAVE BEEN USED
By: Shawn D. Petrie (7-14-1994)

MY FRIEND I HAVE BEEN USED
I HAVE BEEN LIED TO AND ABUSED

MY SOUL HAS BEEN STEPPED ON
DISREGARDED AND NOW I AM THROUGH

THROUGH WITH THIS LIFE
THE LIFE OF THE UNLOVED
THE SOUL IS NOT DESIGNED
TO HOLD THIS MUCH PAIN

IN ANY OF THE TIMES
I HAVE HAD WITH THE LOST
IT IS GONE AND I CAN’T FORGET

MY LIFE IN WHOLE
DIRTY AND COLD
I NEED TO SHUT OUT A WORLD OF SUCH COLD

I NEED TO SHUT OUT THE PAIN AND THE HELL
THE PEOPLE AND THE LIES AND THE HATE

AS I TRY AND SLEEP INTO HE NIGHT
SOMETIMES I CRY, WONDER WHY
THIS WORLD HAS TO BE SO COLD

IN THE END ALL I HAVE IS MY FRIENDS
AND FOR THEM I MAY HAVE A FULL LIFE

BUT WITHOUT SOMEONE ELSE
I AM SO ALONE WITH SO MUCH TO LOOSE
I MAY NEVER GET THE GIRL IN MY HEART

SO THE WRAP UP WILL GO
THIS WORLD IS SO COLD
AND IT WILL NOT LAST VERY LONG

AND THEN THE PEOPLE WILL REGRET
ALL THE HELL THEY DISHED OUT
MAYBE THEN THEY WILL KNOW

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