INNER SEPARATION By: Shawn D. Petrie

INNER SEPARATION
By: Shawn D. Petrie (6-22-1999)

THERE IS A CHILD WHO WATCHES
SHE SEES WHAT I’VE BEEN THROUGH
AND ALTHOUGH THE UNDERSTANDING LACKS
SHE FEELS THE PAIN I FEEL

I CAN’T HELP BUT WONDER
WHAT SHE THINKS OF ME
WHY SHE WANTS TO LEAVE
WHY SHE WON’T GET CLOSE TO ME

THE MIND STILL SEEMS TO REPEAT
I MET HER, KNOCKED OFF MY FEET
AND IT SEEMED SHE WAS THE ONE FOR ME
BUT IN TRUTH IT COULD NEVER BE

SHE MADE ME FEEL I WAS THE ONE FOR HER
BUT IN FACT THE TRUTH WAS BLACK
BECAUSE WHEN I STARTED TO GET CLOSE
HEARTLESSLY SHE TURNED BACK

NOW I PLAY MYSELF, SAY THAT I’M O.K.
I PRETEND I DO NOT FEEL ALONE
I REALIZE NOW THAT NOT EVEN I,
COULD DISPLACE HER SELF RIGHTEOUS THRONE

NOTHING GOING ON INSIDE MY HEAD
NOTHING GOING ON INSIDE MY HEART
EVERYTHING HAS BEEN PUT ON HOLD
‘CAUSE MY INNER SEPARATION IS TEARING ME APART

WHEN WILL THIS CHILD FORGET
THE PAIN I’VE PUT HER THROUGH
ALL MY LOVE MUST HAVE BEEN HELL ON HER
BUT SHE’LL PROBABLY DENY THE TRUTH

THERE IS A CHILD WHO WATCHES
SHE’S COMING INTO HER OWN
AND SOMEDAY SHE’LL SEE
THAT SHE WILL NEVER GET BACK
TO HEAVEN FROM WHICH SHE WAS THROWN

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If you cared By: Shawn D. Petrie

If you cared
By: Shawn D. Petrie (5-13-2000)

Lets just pretend that for a second you care
I would turn around and you would be standing right there
With a smile on your face and enough love to share
You would cover me with kisses, more than I could bear

You would sit right down next to me on the bed
We would talk of your day and the thoughts in your head
You would consider a hug but would kiss me instead
And we would map out our plans for the day that we wed

And if I felt pain you would offer a hand
You would be there for me, make it easier to stand
You would love me like no one else, your own special brand
You would be my woman and make me feel like a man

We would walk together hand in hand in the park
Shining in our world too bright to get dark
Listening to our kids laugh and hear our dog bark
In our little own way we would leave our own mark

We would be a family of love and the simpler things
You would tell me you love me and look down at your wring
You lean over to kiss me and the birds start to sing
As you smile at the memory that our wedding day brings

We would all sit together at the dining room table
Just like you read about in those fairy tale fables
We wouldn’t be distracted by the radio or cable
To enjoy a quiet evening we would be able

And while our two children are sleeping at night
We make love and hold each other tight
Everything is perfect and feels so right
I look at you stunning, a beautiful sight

You would give me a smile just before you would sleep
All of our promises you could honor and keep
We would be thankful of love which never comes cheap
We would sleep through the night our true love running deep

I love you so much, you must have broke the mold
There are no secrets between us no information sold
I would dream of us together, when our kids have grown old
But I wake up alone, shaking and cold

I look around the room but I don’t see your face
Only a crowd of strangers quiet and harsh in this place
Trying to see where I went wrong I begin to retrace
I feel the loss of something great I cannot replace

My hands are now shaking like they used to before
And I try to escape but I cant find the door
I cry cause it hurts but they force feed me more
I think your out in the crowd but I cannot be sure

I grasp onto the past but the memories fading
My life is forgotten your face is now shading
I have nothing to offer and its all about trading
Im the only one crying amidst all the parading

I miss my children and I miss you
I start to believe this reality is true
This new pain is remembered as nothing thats new
And I surrender to the wolves, nothing more I can do

I look around the room, one last time before I die
And I mourn the loss of my family, I begin to cry
I consider escape but don’t bother to try
But just before I am shredded I open my eyes

The light through my window is shining on me
And my life is right back to how it used to be
I realize what’s happened and I can now see
A world where you don’t care is my reality

A world in which I am still all alone
And you don’t even miss me enough to pick up the phone
A world where you have lied and never have shown
That you are the least bit capable of disarming your throne

A tear runs down my cheek cause I miss you
Every thing was a dream nothing good ever came true
You never cared though I tried to persuade you
And you have hurt me again but what else is new

I get up and force myself to go through the door
Another lifeless day just like the one before
I have had quite enough but there’s always more
Of the memories of you that torment for sure

I passed you on the street, you didn’t look but I stared
Something special in my heart I thought we had shared
You wear a false smile, there’s a new man with you there
And just for a second I pretend that you care

I call out your name in my head but you hear
You look right at me and are effected by my tears
Your heart bursts with a love that’s more that you can bear
I turn around and see you standing right there

I have so many memories that you and I share
And when all of this loneliness becomes too much to bear
I start to tell myself that you will be back how I wish you were here
So just for a second I pretend that you care

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Frozen Tears By: Shawn D. Petrie

Frozen Tears
By: Shawn D. Petrie (11-22-1993)

Running through the ashes
On a cold December day
I am as cold inside as it is out here
With frozen tears on my face

Dancing in the cold sun
The freezing light of day
It is true to me I am lost inside
And I am never going to pull out of this

Running through the jasmine
A hallucination in my mind
I am half a man, lost to the outside
With frozen tears on my face

If I were really here I could communicate
If I was still alive I could concentrate
I am dead inside and cannot see my fate
Though you are my friend you cannot end the frozen tears on my face

Running through the ashes
On a cold December day
I wish I could freeze my feelings
And unthaw the tears on my face

Dying under a pale moon
The end is finally here
It is true to me I am lost inside
And I will die without a care

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December 24, 2015 0

From my mind By Shawn D. Petrie

From my mind
By Shawn D. Petrie (10-17-2003)

When will you put your trust in me
Are your eyes wide enough to see
Your poisons running through my heart
With these lies you sell to me

I’m not buying your disguise
We will surly stand our ground
I’ll keep you company with conversation
We will get along all day

Show me the door,
Give me the key
Allow me to leave
Crucify then threaten me

Early in the morning
I sit and wait alone
The gates are shut and locked
The concrete cold and uninviting

Can I do this one more time?
Will I make it home alone
If I turn away now will I forever remember
Or will I force you from my mind

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FOREVER LOVE BY: SHAWN D. PETRIE

FOREVER LOVE
BY: SHAWN D. PETRIE (12-13-1995)

LOVE WAS IN MY HEART FROM THE VERY START

I KNEW IT WAS YOU FROM THE FIRST TIME I SAW YOU

I REALIZED I HAD FOUND WHAT I HAD BEEN LOOKING FOR

PLEASE LET ME IN, OPEN YOUR DOOR

YOUR EYES SO BRIGHT, YOUR SKIN SO SOFT

BEAUTY IS IN THE EYE OF THE BEHOLDER AND I AM LOST

FOREVER MY LOVE WILL STAY IN MY HEART

IN THE HEART OF MY SOUL INSIDE MYSELF

YOUR BEAUTY OVERPOWERS MY CONFIDENCE

AND YOUR PRESENCE TAKES OVER MY HEART AND SOUL

OUR SPIRITS HOVER TOGETHER

TOGETHER FOREVER IN A WARM EMBRACE

INSIDE MY DESIRES

DESIRES THAT WILL NEVER COME TRUE

YOU JUST COULD NOT LET YOURSELF LOVE ME

YOU AND I WERE NOT MEANT TO BE

BEFORE I CLOSE MY EYES AND GO TO SLEEP

I REVIEW MY FAILURE BY REMEMBERING YOUR FACE

AS TO NEVER FORGET OR TO KEEP ON REMINDING MYSELF

THAT WE ONCE HAD WHAT WILL EVER AGAIN NOT

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December 10, 2015 0

Fist of rage By: Shawn D. Petrie

Fist of rage
By: Shawn D. Petrie (7-8-2004)

A cold wind was blowing
The night of October 10th
The moon was full, the sky was black
And everything was still

Through the dead of the night
Came a sudden flash of bright light
Over a fit of jealous rage
I had taken a life

Who was I to judge the man
Was what he did so very wrong
As wrong as the crime I have just committed
As wrong as to the cell I am now committed

Three meals a day and a
Tattooed Muscular cell mate
Stone walls and a bed
Like a caged animal all over a fist of rage

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Everlasting By: Shawn D. Petrie

Everlasting
By: Shawn D. Petrie (10-26-2006)

Time passes and my heart grows harder
A little bit closer to the end each day
Biding my time with a preset number of breathes
These days transfer more strain onto my already tired mind

So young, but then again so old
The better half has come and gone
So much time wasted feeling sad and alone
Trying to be alone to prepare for the day I die alone

Each sip from the cup of love
Draws more from a well which is running down
To someday soon be dry as a bone
And filled with only memories, if even that

The world will always turn

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– AugustWillDecay.com – (9-15-2015)

A B O U T M E / W E L C O M E T O A U G U S T W I L L D E C A Y . C O M

I have, for as long as I can remember, have had a creative / artistic side that needed to get out. Having experienced many things in my life which caused me to gain a rather different perspective on things than my peers I began to express myself through poetry. In the beginning there were three of us going by the name of Disobedience, we were young, angry (especially me) and determined to make any sort of music we could on that dirt floor in the basement practice area we jammed in.

After some time things just kind of tapered off we got jobs, finished school and kind of moved on with life. However I continued to create and develop my style as a solo artist going first under the name of King9ine. This name was taken up by another band calling themselves King Nine (which I also used this variant too long ago) but just as well I needed to start a new chapter in my life after a period of very tough emotional times which came to a head in August 2013.

I was in a slump, possibly the lowest point in my life and I sat down and wrote a poem called August Will Decay. That is how I felt, that during that terrible month of August I would decay. (My emotional state anyway) And I guess to a certain extent it did. I was forever changed by the events that followed and I have come to realize that I will only ever have this one life to live and with that life I can choose to sit around writing sad poems which would turn into the occasional song or I can really try and put some effort into showing the world who I am, what I am made of, what I have been through, my hopes, thoughts, beliefs, and failures through music which I hope some people can relate to.

I am living currently in this new chapter of my life where I have decided not only will I make this effort to show people my music but I will make it an obsession to achieve. I have been sitting on dozens of song for the last 15 years that I have unearthed and polished up the best I can and I have released some EP’s which showcase some old songs but also some new songs.

I am going to keep making my heart speak through music and this website is just another effort in this chapter in my life to make my voice heard. And while I could never thank the people in my life that have caused me endless pain I can at least say that they have inspired me. Driven me. And pushed me to further succeed beyond, hopefully what I even think is possible.

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August Will Decay is an honest expression of raw emotion good bad or indifferent we all have emotions I am not afraid to voice mine.

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December 3, 2015 0

– DYING INSIDE – By: Shawn D. Petrie (6-14-1999)

DYING INSIDE
By: Shawn D. Petrie (6-14-1999)

I WILL CLOSE THE SHUTTERS
BECAUSE I CAN’T LET YOU SEE ME CRY
WITH ALL OF THIS WAITING AND WONDERING
I AM DYING INSIDE

I KNOW EXACTLY WHAT I WANT
AND I KNOW THAT THING IS YOU
I HOPE YOU FEEL THE SAME AS ME
AND FIND YOUR HEART IS TRUE

TWO DAYS HAVE PASSED
MY GIRLFRIEND YOU WERE FOR A DAY
BUT YOU CANNOT REMEMBER THE PROMISE OF LOVE
SO YOU TOOK IT ALL AWAY

I SOON FOUND OUT THAT ALL THE LIES
OUT WEIGHED THE FEELINGS YOU HAD
WHILE YOU ONLY TOYED WITH MY HEART
YOU STILL SEEMED TO TAKE AWAY THE BAD

AND I FOUND OUT THAT THROUGH THE MESS
WHAT YOU TOLD ME WAS A LIE
YOU NEVER WANTED TO BE WITH ME
YOU LEFT ME IN PAIN TO CRY

I TRIED MY BEST TO MAKE IT WORK
I WANTED IT TO BE SO REAL
BUT ONE THING I WILL SLOWLY LEARN
BLOCKS OF ICE JUST CANNOT FEEL

TO YOU I AM JUST ANOTHER GUY
AND THE LINE IS OUT THE DOOR
BUT YOU KEPT ME HANGING ON AND STILL
WANTING TO COME BACK FOR MORE

NOTHING CAN EVER MAKE YOU KNOW
JUST HOW YOU MADE ME FEEL
OUR LOVE BEGAN AND STARTED TO GROW
BUT WHAT IS LEFT IS PAIN SO REAL

EVENTUALLY I , LIKE I ALWAYS DO
WILL MOVE ON TO BE HURT AGAIN
IT IS A VICIOUS CYCLE OF PAIN I AM GIVEN
AND I WISH MY LIFE WOULD JUST END

YOU MUST HAVE BEEN SHOCKED
WHEN I WOULD NOT LET GO, AS I BEGAN TO CRY
YOU HAVE LEFT ME A COLDER PERSON
SLOWLY AND PAINFULLY DYING INSIDE

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– Angelic Ruins – By: Shawn D. Petrie (12-1-2015)

Angelic Ruins
By: Shawn D. Petrie (12-1-2015)

behind those beautiful eyes
burns a fire that can kill
and devastate the weakened fools
who cower at your will

behind that pretty smile
are sharpened gangly fangs
with an appetite for tearing flesh
like dogs in vicious gangs

behind your words so kind
are hidden words of truth
at least that’s what you call them
when in my eyes they are abuse

behind every single promise
is the key to my demise
for with every other word you speak
you weave in little white lies

but what does this amount to
what does this entail
you shake your ass to draw me In
then reveal the Devils tail

but I am blind and go along
with the lies the smiles the cries
I go along as you knew I would
when you made me your next prize

at your feet I wait for scraps
my hearts raked over the coals
until I get crushed and stored away
with the rest of your collected souls

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December 2, 2015 0

– August Will Decay CD’S – (At KUNAKI.COM)

If you have been wondering if I have any albums for sale here is the info on my current releases.

My albums are available through KUNAKI.COM a site I have been using for quite some time and I have been happy with the quality of the product and the speed of delivery.

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Thank You For Your Support.

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December 1, 2015 0

– Fall Monitor – By: Shawn D. Petrie (9-19-1999)

Fall Monitor
By: Shawn D. Petrie (9-19-1999)

Still walking the black highway
Through the fields of ash
Searching for some friends of new
Disposing of yesterdays trash

Looking for the angel I know
May only exist in a dream
Fighting off the end of my world
Internal agony, steady streams

I view the little screen
Hoping to find so much more
Looking for that crack of light
A little hope shining from under the door

The buttons I press in the dead of the night
To help me through the hours
The people I meet and quickly dismiss
Display self gratifying powers

Who can you trust, why is it easy
Why bother anymore?
No one can fully anticipate
What this stranger has in store

Twisting the words into something that
I can relate to and understand
Expecting rejection, an out stretch of effecting
Trying to prove I’m a man

Still the light is shining on me
Blinding on the nights that I cry
Your sitting with me mocking my pain
Laughing at how hard I try

Right from the start you were there
Through my rise and my fall
If there were games and lies under your mask
Then why did you bother to call?

You can go away now, leave, be gone
Leave me here with my chords and my plugs
Striving to survive, loosing the battle
Depending more and more on the drugs

It would be so easy to turn you off
Forget you, disobey and walk away
But what you did is haunting my soul
And I live with it every single day