I have not forgotten By: Shawn D. Petrie

I have not forgotten
By: Shawn D. Petrie (2-5-2007)

I stepped into a situation
I knew not how to deal
With far to many emotions
Some of which weren’t real

But something always felt so good
Just looking in your eyes
I have so much respect for you
Though i seem to make you cry

You push me back so very hard
But i only came on stronger
Until you could no long breathe
And we could not last much longer

But i couldn’t let you go
For sure i don’t know why
So two more times i looked for love
I knew i had to try

My my had not frown enough
To see all that was wrong
And eventually we split apart
And its has since been very long

I survived and got my wish
A beautiful girl to call my own
She liked me very much
And her attraction was always shown

So many years later
Once my life was carved in stone
She disappeared from me all at once
And now i’m all alone

Without even looking
She came up clear to me
The one that melts me with her eyes
we were both surprised

I had to let her know
That i was still around
I had to try to talk to her
And prove that i’m on steady ground

She talked to me
And then we met
And all the things I’d soon forget
Came rushing back to me

But with a grown up clarity

And here is where i stand
I want to be your friend
I want to make you happy
And know you think of me

I want to spend the hours
Talking until we’re tired
I want to make love to you
I want to feel you close

I want to hold onto the dream
That you could be the one
That we could spend the rest of time
Together and as one

But as it stands right now
I must forget it all
And worry about the simple next step
Which one of us is going to call

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December 24, 2015 0

This Nightmare Christmas Eve (12-24-2015)

This Nightmare Christmas Eve
By: Shawn D. Petrie (12-24-2015)

Twas the night before sadness
Like I’ve never felt before
And the hurt that surrounds me
Has seldom been more

The tree I won’t place
Still stares in my face
As a constant reminder
Of the loss from this place

The stockings (just socks)
Are not hung anywhere
And I am feeling alone
Wondering who cares

Am I meant to suffer
As the snow is impending
To freeze off my love
And destroy this pretending

This holiday season
Burns it it’s own special way
And I curse this Christmas eve
And tomorrow just the same

Why place so much desire
In a heart that’s kept alone…
Some sick kind of joke?
From the leaders on thrones?

Twas the night before madness
As my mind self destructs
I won’t wake up tomorrow
…With a small bit of luck

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INNER SEPARATION By: Shawn D. Petrie

INNER SEPARATION
By: Shawn D. Petrie (6-22-1999)

THERE IS A CHILD WHO WATCHES
SHE SEES WHAT I’VE BEEN THROUGH
AND ALTHOUGH THE UNDERSTANDING LACKS
SHE FEELS THE PAIN I FEEL

I CAN’T HELP BUT WONDER
WHAT SHE THINKS OF ME
WHY SHE WANTS TO LEAVE
WHY SHE WON’T GET CLOSE TO ME

THE MIND STILL SEEMS TO REPEAT
I MET HER, KNOCKED OFF MY FEET
AND IT SEEMED SHE WAS THE ONE FOR ME
BUT IN TRUTH IT COULD NEVER BE

SHE MADE ME FEEL I WAS THE ONE FOR HER
BUT IN FACT THE TRUTH WAS BLACK
BECAUSE WHEN I STARTED TO GET CLOSE
HEARTLESSLY SHE TURNED BACK

NOW I PLAY MYSELF, SAY THAT I’M O.K.
I PRETEND I DO NOT FEEL ALONE
I REALIZE NOW THAT NOT EVEN I,
COULD DISPLACE HER SELF RIGHTEOUS THRONE

NOTHING GOING ON INSIDE MY HEAD
NOTHING GOING ON INSIDE MY HEART
EVERYTHING HAS BEEN PUT ON HOLD
‘CAUSE MY INNER SEPARATION IS TEARING ME APART

WHEN WILL THIS CHILD FORGET
THE PAIN I’VE PUT HER THROUGH
ALL MY LOVE MUST HAVE BEEN HELL ON HER
BUT SHE’LL PROBABLY DENY THE TRUTH

THERE IS A CHILD WHO WATCHES
SHE’S COMING INTO HER OWN
AND SOMEDAY SHE’LL SEE
THAT SHE WILL NEVER GET BACK
TO HEAVEN FROM WHICH SHE WAS THROWN

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December 24, 2015 0

If you cared By: Shawn D. Petrie

If you cared
By: Shawn D. Petrie (5-13-2000)

Lets just pretend that for a second you care
I would turn around and you would be standing right there
With a smile on your face and enough love to share
You would cover me with kisses, more than I could bear

You would sit right down next to me on the bed
We would talk of your day and the thoughts in your head
You would consider a hug but would kiss me instead
And we would map out our plans for the day that we wed

And if I felt pain you would offer a hand
You would be there for me, make it easier to stand
You would love me like no one else, your own special brand
You would be my woman and make me feel like a man

We would walk together hand in hand in the park
Shining in our world too bright to get dark
Listening to our kids laugh and hear our dog bark
In our little own way we would leave our own mark

We would be a family of love and the simpler things
You would tell me you love me and look down at your wring
You lean over to kiss me and the birds start to sing
As you smile at the memory that our wedding day brings

We would all sit together at the dining room table
Just like you read about in those fairy tale fables
We wouldn’t be distracted by the radio or cable
To enjoy a quiet evening we would be able

And while our two children are sleeping at night
We make love and hold each other tight
Everything is perfect and feels so right
I look at you stunning, a beautiful sight

You would give me a smile just before you would sleep
All of our promises you could honor and keep
We would be thankful of love which never comes cheap
We would sleep through the night our true love running deep

I love you so much, you must have broke the mold
There are no secrets between us no information sold
I would dream of us together, when our kids have grown old
But I wake up alone, shaking and cold

I look around the room but I don’t see your face
Only a crowd of strangers quiet and harsh in this place
Trying to see where I went wrong I begin to retrace
I feel the loss of something great I cannot replace

My hands are now shaking like they used to before
And I try to escape but I cant find the door
I cry cause it hurts but they force feed me more
I think your out in the crowd but I cannot be sure

I grasp onto the past but the memories fading
My life is forgotten your face is now shading
I have nothing to offer and its all about trading
Im the only one crying amidst all the parading

I miss my children and I miss you
I start to believe this reality is true
This new pain is remembered as nothing thats new
And I surrender to the wolves, nothing more I can do

I look around the room, one last time before I die
And I mourn the loss of my family, I begin to cry
I consider escape but don’t bother to try
But just before I am shredded I open my eyes

The light through my window is shining on me
And my life is right back to how it used to be
I realize what’s happened and I can now see
A world where you don’t care is my reality

A world in which I am still all alone
And you don’t even miss me enough to pick up the phone
A world where you have lied and never have shown
That you are the least bit capable of disarming your throne

A tear runs down my cheek cause I miss you
Every thing was a dream nothing good ever came true
You never cared though I tried to persuade you
And you have hurt me again but what else is new

I get up and force myself to go through the door
Another lifeless day just like the one before
I have had quite enough but there’s always more
Of the memories of you that torment for sure

I passed you on the street, you didn’t look but I stared
Something special in my heart I thought we had shared
You wear a false smile, there’s a new man with you there
And just for a second I pretend that you care

I call out your name in my head but you hear
You look right at me and are effected by my tears
Your heart bursts with a love that’s more that you can bear
I turn around and see you standing right there

I have so many memories that you and I share
And when all of this loneliness becomes too much to bear
I start to tell myself that you will be back how I wish you were here
So just for a second I pretend that you care

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Frozen Tears By: Shawn D. Petrie

Frozen Tears
By: Shawn D. Petrie (11-22-1993)

Running through the ashes
On a cold December day
I am as cold inside as it is out here
With frozen tears on my face

Dancing in the cold sun
The freezing light of day
It is true to me I am lost inside
And I am never going to pull out of this

Running through the jasmine
A hallucination in my mind
I am half a man, lost to the outside
With frozen tears on my face

If I were really here I could communicate
If I was still alive I could concentrate
I am dead inside and cannot see my fate
Though you are my friend you cannot end the frozen tears on my face

Running through the ashes
On a cold December day
I wish I could freeze my feelings
And unthaw the tears on my face

Dying under a pale moon
The end is finally here
It is true to me I am lost inside
And I will die without a care

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Go as you planned By: Shawn D. Petrie

Go as you planned
By: Shawn D. Petrie (4-22-2004)

He represents every man
Every man but me
I am the one with will
Wide enough to see

That it’s not about
Who is right
And who is wrong
Or who has been around for too long

He was born and raised
To be tough as steel
And never feel that it’s ok
To express what he really feels

He was told to save his fears
For a woman’s ears
But that doesn’t always
Go as you planned

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I miss you all day By: Shawn D. Petrie

I miss you all day
By: Shawn D. Petrie (7-8-2003)

Days go by but I will survive
The past seems like a dream
Wondering if that’s how I’m living now
A tear drops by the chill of your screams

Thinking of people that I have loved
The ones who have stayed and the ones I have lost
Ready to give up on the ones I have now
And get you back at any cost

I know that all seems wrong
And for sure not how I should live
Maybe it’s because you hold a part of me
That I foolishly decided to give

Seeing as how you said that you loved me
I thought that you would always be there
But one day I wasn’t paying attention
Turned around and you weren’t there

All of the people I have known
And in my own fathers raised hand
I have got to know before I go
Is this really an example of a man

Happiness has surly passed me by
I don’t know which way to turn
Realizing that any path I choose
Will surly leave me to burn

When I call you on the telephone
It’s always the same, you’re never home
Out on the town, another fun night
You left me alone with my pain and my fright

Like is something we must choose to live
Even though we are already alive
But what can I do when I offer my love
But in return yours is always denied

I miss you and I don’t know what else to say
When were not together I miss you all day

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HURT By: Shawn D. Petrie

HURT
By: Shawn D. Petrie (6-13-1994)

I HATE MY LIFE

I HATE MY JOB

I HATE MY FRIENDS

THEY THINK I’M A SLOB

I HATE ALL KINDS OF FOOD

I EVEN HATE YOU

I HURT INSIDE

‘CAUSE ALL THINGS I HATE

WON’T GO AWAY

FOREVER THEY’LL STAY

I HURT INSIDE

‘CAUSE PROBLEMS CONTROL

THEY REOCCUR WON’T GO AWAY

I FEEL NO LOVE

NO ONE TO HUG

NO ONE TO KISS

YOU DON’T GIVE A SHIT

I HURT INSIDE ‘CAUSE

I’M SICK OF THIS LIFE

I HATE THE WORLD

I HATE MY LIFE

I HATE TO REVEAL

THE FACTS THAT HIT HARD

I HATE SO MUCH

THAT IT HURTS TO BE ALIVE

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I was on your mind By: Shawn D. Petrie

I was on your mind
By: Shawn D. Petrie (4-22-2004)

When I first met you
I didn’t know what to expect
But I know I wanted to see you again
And I know I wanted to be your friend

When we went out
For our first time
I felt a special connection
And was drawn into your direction

I soon realized you felt the same
You were interested in me
And you wanted to see me another time
And you said that I was on your mind

We fell out
It was out very last time
We lost that special connection
I was no longer on your mind

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December 23, 2015 0

How much it hurts By: Shawn D. Petrie (1-25-2007)

How much it hurts
By: Shawn D. Petrie (1-25-2007)

The thoughts of complication make the world feel so deserted
The words I try to speak come out all wrong
At times i have the answers but there quickly lost
And i am only left with more questions, the pain is so unreal

I don’t know why you left me, in the eyes of another man
You must be his angel, once you were mine
I tried so hard to be happy, you kept much pain at bay
But there was too much and it was hard to hold it all inside each day

But you were my wife, i guess you still are
The words we spoke talked of forever
And i still feel that way today
Even though i want to punish you for all you took away

I know now that i have hurt you
I know now the tings that i did wrong
I never knew it at the time, i was immature, confused
But the pain you caused me was intentional, you meant what you said

You left me with so many memories some good some bad
The bad ones make me cry and the good ones remind me
Ill never have those times back again
And that brings on a real intense defeating agony

I wish you could feel how much it hurts
And i wish you could heal how much it hurts
With your presence and an apology would it all be ok
Or would the pain override the loss and would i turn away