If you knew
By: Shawn D. Petrie (6-19-2015)


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The darkness fills my eyes
As we say our last goodbyes
If you only knew what id do for you
If you were mine

An emptiness fills the silence
But im screaming out inside
If you only knew just how much
I love you

Life is short and nothings free
But the love that once was Between you and me
But now its faded like your memories
Of better times

But I cannot focus
On what lies beneath
The memories that are
Filling me are positive
And I can only cry

If you knew what I would do for you
I would die for you
Tell a lie for you
I would take the brunt of any force
Without a flinch
For you of course

If you only knew
How I feel inside
And how when I lost you
Something died
That I cant replace
I miss your face
And I miss you

If you knew how I hope
As each day passes
That that will be the very last day
That I spend without you
But there behind it
Is another day, alone

The notes and tags, the gifts the rags
Laying around and hidden in plain sight
A constant reminder
Of what we once had
But will never have again

I have lost my best friend

The only one who will ever know
The real me
The one even I cant see
And help me grow those days
Are sadly over

But there is no blame
The cant be a cause
Is the universe perhaps because
No ones meant to feel that way
Forever

But if you knew
How I hoped and prayed
To a god I don’t know
Cause he never showed
To make that wish come true for me
Which was you

If you only knew the truth
I will never be me without you
I can only be what is left
Of an assembled mess
From pieces that don’t fit
They don’t make sense
They never will again

As I slid that ring on your finger
In that moment my heart does linger
And I miss holding your hand
When you wore your ring

I miss your touch
I miss your kiss
I miss your love
I miss so much

If you only knew what I now know
You’d forgive me
But with so much distance
So much pain
Lies and hurt
And draught and rain
How could we ever go back to what
I remember

Is what I picture true?
Were you ever mine?
Nothing is real anymore
So I must step back let you live your life
The life you tried so hard for with me
But I destroyed your dreams

I am sorry that I hurt you
And I sorry for this reality
I’m sorry for so many things
Maybe if you knew

You could forgive me

I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU


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I have not forgotten
By: Shawn D. Petrie (2-5-2007)


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I stepped into a situation
I knew not how to deal
With far to many emotions
Some of which weren’t real

But something always felt so good
Just looking in your eyes
I have so much respect for you
Though i seem to make you cry

You push me back so very hard
But i only came on stronger
Until you could no long breathe
And we could not last much longer

But i couldn’t let you go
For sure i don’t know why
So two more times i looked for love
I knew i had to try

My my had not frown enough
To see all that was wrong
And eventually we split apart
And its has since been very long

I survived and got my wish
A beautiful girl to call my own
She liked me very much
And her attraction was always shown

So many years later
Once my life was carved in stone
She disappeared from me all at once
And now i’m all alone

Without even looking
She came up clear to me
The one that melts me with her eyes
we were both surprised

I had to let her know
That i was still around
I had to try to talk to her
And prove that i’m on steady ground

She talked to me
And then we met
And all the things I’d soon forget
Came rushing back to me

But with a grown up clarity

And here is where i stand
I want to be your friend
I want to make you happy
And know you think of me

I want to spend the hours
Talking until we’re tired
I want to make love to you
I want to feel you close

I want to hold onto the dream
That you could be the one
That we could spend the rest of time
Together and as one

But as it stands right now
I must forget it all
And worry about the simple next step
Which one of us is going to call


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This Nightmare Christmas Eve
By: Shawn D. Petrie (12-24-2015)


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Twas the night before sadness
Like I’ve never felt before
And the hurt that surrounds me
Has seldom been more

The tree I won’t place
Still stares in my face
As a constant reminder
Of the loss from this place

The stockings (just socks)
Are not hung anywhere
And I am feeling alone
Wondering who cares

Am I meant to suffer
As the snow is impending
To freeze off my love
And destroy this pretending

This holiday season
Burns it it’s own special way
And I curse this Christmas eve
And tomorrow just the same

Why place so much desire
In a heart that’s kept alone…
Some sick kind of joke?
From the leaders on thrones?

Twas the night before madness
As my mind self destructs
I won’t wake up tomorrow
…With a small bit of luck


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INNER SEPARATION
By: Shawn D. Petrie (6-22-1999)


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THERE IS A CHILD WHO WATCHES
SHE SEES WHAT I’VE BEEN THROUGH
AND ALTHOUGH THE UNDERSTANDING LACKS
SHE FEELS THE PAIN I FEEL

I CAN’T HELP BUT WONDER
WHAT SHE THINKS OF ME
WHY SHE WANTS TO LEAVE
WHY SHE WON’T GET CLOSE TO ME

THE MIND STILL SEEMS TO REPEAT
I MET HER, KNOCKED OFF MY FEET
AND IT SEEMED SHE WAS THE ONE FOR ME
BUT IN TRUTH IT COULD NEVER BE

SHE MADE ME FEEL I WAS THE ONE FOR HER
BUT IN FACT THE TRUTH WAS BLACK
BECAUSE WHEN I STARTED TO GET CLOSE
HEARTLESSLY SHE TURNED BACK

NOW I PLAY MYSELF, SAY THAT I’M O.K.
I PRETEND I DO NOT FEEL ALONE
I REALIZE NOW THAT NOT EVEN I,
COULD DISPLACE HER SELF RIGHTEOUS THRONE

NOTHING GOING ON INSIDE MY HEAD
NOTHING GOING ON INSIDE MY HEART
EVERYTHING HAS BEEN PUT ON HOLD
‘CAUSE MY INNER SEPARATION IS TEARING ME APART

WHEN WILL THIS CHILD FORGET
THE PAIN I’VE PUT HER THROUGH
ALL MY LOVE MUST HAVE BEEN HELL ON HER
BUT SHE’LL PROBABLY DENY THE TRUTH

THERE IS A CHILD WHO WATCHES
SHE’S COMING INTO HER OWN
AND SOMEDAY SHE’LL SEE
THAT SHE WILL NEVER GET BACK
TO HEAVEN FROM WHICH SHE WAS THROWN


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